blaaah , that's what you are :)

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Title: blaaah , that's what you are :)

I need to relax and find something else to think about. Cause all of this confusion is driving me crazy , up and around. Everything I think of relates back to you ; music , school , to kill a mockingbird, school buses, perogies, stupid commericials and my stupid questions all have something to do , with you. It’s stupid I know but I am pretty sure you’ve had that feeling when you’re tired of the same thoughts over and over again. That same feeling when you’re mind, not your heart, is full of pain and you just cannot sustain. So you need to empty out your mind to find that peace that once belonged to you until that special someone came around. But it still doesn’t work cause you’re stuck and bound. You’re bound like a book , and as a book you’re judged you’re cover. Plus, you’re either hated or . . . loved. But in the end you remember that special someone who at least once, has said something to you about you’re cover. And those words you say over and over . Now that you get how I feel , let’s go together and get over this deal. The thing is, I am really scared that if I stop thinking about you , I loose you forever . Plus, if I loose you forever then I just have total regret and it will result to a guilt , but it will never leave, but whatever. I’ve felt that guilt already, I’m practically a pro. Plus , if you think about it , that guilt will always be here which means you will always be here though. Wow, well that’s great I’m stuck with you and those other guys that are already in my mind. But I promise you, out of all of them you are the only boy who is always in my mind, no matter what time. I try to think good thoughts about you , although I tell my self who cares ? right, I mean you probably don’t care about me. But that’s allright cause at least you know that I am here to support you, even if that me forgetting about me . You’ll do great without me cause you have her . Even if she’s just . . . retarded, that’s allright, cause that’s your problem now. Hmm , perfect if I forget about you, then I’m totally fine with what you left me cause you chose her not me . haaa, that’s what you geeet SUCKKKA (:

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